Flick of the Wrist

Mais ce n'est pas possible!

2009-11-10T16:14:04Z

It snowed today for hours and hours. Walking to school was difficult, mainly because you coulnd't see anything and the snow kept getting into my scarf. Gladly the snowing stopped before school ended.
The snow falling resulted in a most stunningly beautiful, black and white postcard-y landscape all around us.
I personally dislike snow just like I dislike bright sunshine. The aesthetic value of it on a day like this is, however, quite high. Once again I strongly envy those in possession of a camera.

If it only stayed like this till the end of February.

// I have no tags for entries like this.

nothing at all

2009-11-09T20:26:22Z

First, look at this:

And then tell me why I don't own one yet. Is that like the greatest umbrella ever? Blade Runner for the win!

Movies:
Theres an other Holmes adaptation coming out, probably some low budget straight-to-dvd/blu-ray thingy, but lo! this Holmes is a little bit like the real one. (Still, he's [arguably] too young and his hair is too long. And Watson should for ever be shorter than Holmes.)
Two things I find rather weird are the steampunky objects in the gallery and the tyrannosaurus rex. I probably won't see this, ever, but I felt the need to announce the existence of this to you.
The real Sherlock Holmes is a mixture of the TV series guy and the Star Wars evil commander guy. And David Bowie! Absolutely!

blood and destruction because of man

2009-11-08T09:16:43Z

I haven't got a single thing to say except that I made this new icon (took, like, two minutes) a couple of days ago. I didn't want to make a separate post just for 'new icon yay' so I thought I'd wait till I have something to say. Which I, sadly, don't.
So this is a yay new icon post after all.

//editing at 12:04

Guess what month it is? That's right, the The-New-Doctor-Who-Episode-Comes-Out-In-This-Month -month, November. Scheduled for the fifteenth, which is in, like, a week. GYAH. You can expect me to talk about nothing but it after I've seen it.

*crazy with excitement*

Aquarium: fishy-fishy-fish

2009-11-02T17:09:38Z

Tell me I have no life, I won't deny it.

I've been re-watching Princess Tutu.
I'm not entirely 100 percent sure, but I think it was one of the first anime series I watched 'on my own'. The beginning is somewhat boring, 'Gotta Catch 'Em All' as tvtropes has it put, but it does turn BLOODY AWESOME sometime into the series. The second series, I think, is all good.
No, actually, I'm serious. It's really good, it really is.
And I was kinda young when I watched it the first time - years ago - so I don't really remember everything, and I've done well not spoiling myself this time.

Oh and the music! The music! All the best classical composers (well, those that composed ballets, actually, really). Tchaikovsky, one of my all-time favourites plays a big part.
*Now playing The Dance of the Sugar-Plum Fairy*
and then the Sleeping Beauty one thay have in the Disney version too
what next - the marriage march, perhaps?

And the hammers batter down your door

2009-11-01T20:18:25Z

Oooh. I've got a serious winner feeling right now. Today we photographed stuff and after we got the pictures sorted and the people left I've been doing some very simple coding and it's just great. It's not anywhere to be seen yet, as we for example are still missing a name - and it'd be nice to have something to put up there too.
But right now my thing was that YAAY coding.

Icon to fit.

No, I play the harmonica

2009-10-31T08:21:54Z

Why does it always seem that there are no good movies in theatres? You're always waiting for a film or two, but none of the ones they're currently showing are good.
Mind you, you can watch movies elsewhere too. Yesterday I watched 'How I Won the War'. Though I generally dislike war films, this one was quite good. Of course, it wasn't all just killing the enemies, it was about these hopeless men trying to get behind enemy lines so that they could put up a cricket ... field? what do you call it? there. It was very British and that means that it wasn't really all that funny. Made in the mid-to-late-sixties, even the Pythons hadn't emerged as a group yet. The film did have its moments, like the way some of the characters (seemingly spontaneously) turned all clad in one bright colour. Not until the very end of the film did I realize that it probably was made so that when a character died, he turned colourful, the same colour in which the battle-sequence in which he died was filmed in (make any sense?).
Unfortunately I can't find any screencaps of them.
Oh, yes, by the way, it's the film John Lennon was in after the Beatles quit touring in -66. His colour was blue.

Then, this:

I know it's sorta old, but still. I mean, I found out about this only, like, a week ago, and I sort of cried.
Not even 'sort of'. I did.

Where did my hero disappear?

Now, I'm repairing the damage done with this, okay, and we forget that Gackt ever looked like that ^, yes?

It's interesting how no one seems to know/like Malice Mizer even though everything Japanese is totally, like, 'in' right now, and has been so the last couple years. I mean, people, it's like GACKT, the prettiest singer ever, and MANA, who, like, invented Elegant Gothic Lolita, and they're both pretty and YOUNG.
Ah well. Maybe it's just good.

...I was looking for love

2009-10-28T19:29:52Z

I'ven't (yes, I know) been to the nets for a while and in my absence HOLiC chapter 189 was translated. Whoo! and the chinese raw for 190.

this rant goes on...

Oh! Oh1 Oh! (Look at that 'one', bwahhahhaaa.) Hetalia! Kobato. Anime. Must see. *goes off*
though Kobato. is like totally boring and stuff. (Oh lord. Do I sound like Poland? I don't, right? Right? He's annoying.)
Huh, wait, what? That guy in Kobato. looked (well, it was... actually, I don't know. No breasts?) like that WISH angel. (Angels have girly voices and no breasts. . . ?)
IT WAS HER(?) SHE(?) HAD THE MAN THERE TOO. Hee. Totally knew it. Even though I haven't read it and all. Should borrow the first couple of volumes from T.

by the way, am I being the coolest person ever (or the exact opposite) for . . . ah, well, never mind.

Hey, did I tell you I bought Clover? I didn't. I mean, didn't tell you. Buy it, I did. Uh, the point was that it was quite good and I loved the way the order the chapters were in inverted chronological order. (Is that the right way to say it?) And Ren and ...

HOO. FUJIMOTO. In Kobato. and in Ponyo! Yeeah! Sorry.

... Gingetsu, or whatever his name was were awesome.

O HAY. If, like, you know, Kobato. goes and crosses over around like Holic And Tsubasa, then might we have (though now that I think of it, how much have Clamp actually published of Kobato.? Maybe I should see about the manga as well...) THE VAMPIRE TWINS. Or maybe over in Holic. They were (well, the four guys really, the vampires and Fuuma and Seishirou) like the best part of Tsubasa EVER (except for Kurogane and Fai, but let's not talk about that), and their destinies were never revealed. So I (along with many many many other people, I'm sure) want to see them.

Ummm. Blue hair, dude. Or perhaps blue hair-dude? No way, that sounds like the dude is hairy and blue.

Oh and yesterday was John Cleese's birthday. He's old. I can't be bothered to look up some good picture so I'll just celebrate with the icon.

. . . . I started writing this at around 3 o'clock.

You can't stake your lives on a saviour machine

2009-10-23T21:02:19Z

O HAY, the food of horses~
Uh. I've been thinking again, and stuff.

No actually I was going to explain my genius plans, but then I sorta blergh'd. I just think that (if I had the time) it'd be nice te get everything gathered in one place. Now places like twitter and facebook might help me with that (go meta), but YARGH THOSE SOCIAL INTERACTION WEBSITE-POOS.

Sorry.

//edit: happy international Hetalia day everyone.
Somehow this depresses me. LIKE, A LOT. asdasd. I'm depressed, and it's totally not fun.
why when something like this happens I always have something else? THERE ARE 300 DAYS IN A YEAR WHEN I HAVE NOTHING TO DO AT ALL.

It's been so long since we spoke. . .

2009-10-22T16:34:08Z

We-he-helll...

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The first week of school is almost over, and I come to you bearing gifts.
First two pictures of me wearing glasses I bought today ( and before you come to complain I'd just like to inform you that to me wearing glasses is a bit like wearing high heels is to some people. I mean, high heels make you taller->better looking, yes? Then why not with glasses as well [not sayin' they make me tall though] ? )

this I am saying: these pictures, even though taken in a terrible yellow light with a webcam look a thousand times better than the school pictures of this year. So yay.

(point 1.5: Is anyone reminded of this?
You can't actually see it from those pics, but that's totally how my hair goes like in the front.)

Second, my über-awesome English essay-type-sort-of thing. In a separate post, just because.

Then. . . . . . . . . .*suspense* - - - *roll doom music*

We went to see this film yesterday, me and dad:

empty
space

(well not so empty since I wrote this)

continuing with the underwater theme, eh?
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First of all: MIYAZAKI GENIUS x million.
Unbelievable. I mean really. It was something you (or me) did not expect (I was totally unspoiled though and all). Definitely worth seeing. And it made me want to watch Mononoke-hime (though 'something something something Ponyo*' was something so very different {all children-y and happy and non-bloody.} )
I don't really know what I should write of it. . .

* the name as I remember it. IMDB tells me the somethings translate to Gake no Ue no ...

. . .
Ahhumh. *Is reminded of 'ugh, paperi loppui.'*

Yeah, what was I.... Oh yeah the sewing. Well, it is a bit desperate with me, really, but no worries.
Also.
Saturday (the day of one-eyebrow'd people (united eyebrows)) = Hetalia Day. Doubt I'm gonna do anything though.
And chapter HOLiC 188 translated.

too bad about it..

2009-10-21T13:57:14Z

the word anxiety is ANGST in German.

I feared to walk alone again and asked if she would stay

2009-10-20T17:37:33Z

I don't remember if I wrote about sewing this one jacket, but I will now, briefly. So, I want to sew this jacket. (/brief, heh heh) It shouldn't be much of a challenge, really, if I got the patterns figured out. I mean, finally there's something I actually think I could really make. So it's yay!

// btw, the now listening. I shall not make a comment on the matter. :D

miryak @ 2009-10-18T19:04:00

2009-10-18T16:04:38Z

Just a quick update. I've been watching Kobato. (it's, uh, I don't know. not necessarily very me, but it's clamp, and reading is too much of a bother, really, so I watch the anime, at least I did the two first episodes) and APHetalia and I'm reading Hetalia too, right now, and mum just told me we're eating pasta today.

Also, I've been thinking of buying Kyo Kara Maoh, just because.

miryak @ 2009-10-12T18:24:00

2009-10-12T15:37:29Z

HOLiC, chapter 188. Go CLAMP!

1. Doumeki totally lives in the shop.
2. Mysterious woman.
3. Mysterious koto.
4. Maru and Moro are there, and they're nice.
5. I can't read chinese.
6. I almost cried. Tears of happiness and joy.
7. Waiting for the next chapter. Eagerly.

Welsh Rugby

2009-10-12T15:13:39Z

Title: Liikkuva Linna (originally Howl's Moving Castle)
Author: Diana Wynne Jones
Started & Finished: 12th October
Page count: 323
Where I got it from: Alavus Library

Reason for reading: Howl's Moving Castle. I've read it once before, then I went and wathced the movie, read a couple of other Diana Wynne Jones Books and then wanted to read this too, remembering it was quite good.

Short Summary: Sophie Hatter has an ageing spell put on her, and she ends up living in the castle of Howl, a wizard of terrifying reputation.

General notes, read again, recommend?: It's just amazing. Everything about it is great. I have read the book once before, but because I didn't exactly remember all of it my reading experience remained undisturbed. I will read the book again and again, and hope to read it in the original English next, and hope to get the bokk as my own as well, and I absolutely recommend it to everyone! Those of you who have seen the Ghibli movie and think it's good, you must read this! This is ten times as wonderful as the film.

Disliked & Liked: I liked all of it, except the way some of the sentences were a bit dull, too short-like. Everything else - brilliant! Especially Howl being ill and angsty.

Favourite bit(s): Howl being childish. The athmosphere of it all. Oh and Wales, too. WALES FOR THE WIN. WALES FOR-

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The one before the one

2009-10-12T14:57:45Z

Title: The Lives of Christopher Chant
Author: Diana Wynne Jones
Finished: unsure, around 8th October
Pages: ?
Where I got it from: Finland Capital Area library

Reason for reading: In Charmed Life my favourite character was Chrestomanci, and I of course wanted to read his story as well. Easy as that.

Short Summary: Christopher, a boy who can travel from world to another inside his dreams, has tremendous magical powers. He is destined to be the next Chersomanci, for he has nine lives. It is surprising how easily the lives can be lost, however, in dreams and the real world.

General Notes, read again, recommend?: Oh well. It was a bit predictable - a whole lot more so than Charmed Life. For smaller children I see no reason not to like it. The book might have been a bit boring if one hadn't read Charmed Life, because so many things happened that were referred to in the previous book. I would very musch like to read the book again, once I've forgotten enough about it, and would happily recommend it for those who like magic, fantasy, spiritual parallel world travelling, and who can bear predictableness.

Liked & Didn't like:
Nothing much I didn't like. Everything was told from Christopher's point of view, and it was easy to identify with him - even to the point that the people he admired were the characters you liked. The relationship between Millie and Christopher, the part I was most afraid to read, was told very well. Only bad thing was the predictableness, really. Also the fact that Michael Saunders didn't make it into the story.

Favourite bits:
Oh dear. I don't know - most of it.

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You and I have memories longer than. . .

2009-10-11T12:54:08Z

When one lives in the city, coming to the countryside can be good in many ways.
We arrived here on Friday night.

And oh the stars in the sky.

Friday was also

's birthday.

Mais je ne sais pas qui tu es

2009-10-08T17:39:27Z

Man.

I'm so depressed again.

I read The Lives of Christopher Chant (you might or might not get a review).
-It was good.
I (sort of) watched Code Geass.
-It was really good (sort of).
I read the ending of Tsubasa.
-And for that there are no words.

Now I've nothing to do! Nothing great to read or watch or anything! Argh!

It's no fun anymore! (Betcha didn't get the reference, eh?)

Uagh. I wouldn't have liked Tsubasa to end. I mean, it was good, it was great, it was FOOKING AWESOME, but yaaaargh. Well, okay, to be honest, it was quite long and complex and long and complex and impossible to understand, but still! I don't even know if it was a happy ending! (It was, but still. Sakura was left alone. *sadface* )
Kurogane and Fai were happy though, and that's all that matters to me. Please don't stare.
And the name thing! It was good too. A bit expectable, but still.
And oh! I'd like to know how the vampire twins, Fuuma and that other guy (name escapes, name escapes. . . . . . uhh... something Sakurazuka(mori?)) are doing. I mean, CLAMP is utter fail for not finishing X.
. . .
Seishirou! That was his name! The kill-them-with-your-bare-hands:drive-your-hand-through-their-chests guy! Yeah!

And Code Geass was great ofr being DESIGNED BY CLAMP YES PLEASE and bad for having mecha, cause I'm not actually that much into them and great for being SO VERY GAY. Sorry, had to get that off my chest.

There's always HOLiC, though. I hope it won't end anytime soon, cause THEN I'D BE PROPERLY AND TRULY DEPRESSED, man, I mean, Holic is my favourite manga of all time! Watanuki needs to be happy. I will not take it if Holic ends like Tsubasa - you know, not happy, not sad. Watanuki must either die or be happy. IT'S YOUR CHOICE, CLAMP. Happiness or death could preferably have something to do with Doumeki.

Of a Cat and a Violin

2009-10-04T13:56:04Z

This is a review sort of thingy again.

Title: Noidan Veli (Originally Charmed Life)
Author: Diana Wynne Jones
Started & Finished: October 4th 09
Pages: 262
Where I got it from: an aunt

Reason for reading (a bit of backstory):

The first time I was introduced to the story it was when I was between 8 and should I say 10 years of age. My older cousin wanted to read the book to her younger cousins, me and two others. It was a holiday and we were all at our grandparents' house. She was a good reader and during that time we did nothing but sit and listen to her read. my cousins had to leave before she finished the book, but I stayed and she read it for me.

I have once read the book after this - at least, I intended to, but I can not remember if I ever got to reading it.

Now some days ago I felt the terrible urge to read the book again. I'm not sure where it came from, but it might have been because I watched the Ghibli movie 'Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi' one day. (Thought process, in case it seems strange how a Japanese 200x animation brings me to a British 1977 book:
Spirited Away (the movie)
> Howl's Moving Castle (other movie by Ghibli)
> The book on which the movie was based on
> Diana Wynne Jones , the author of the book
> another of her books, this. Charmed Life.)

I then proceeded to see if my mother had the book in her bookcase, which was not the case. My aunt, however, did, and she lent it for me.

Short Summary: Eric "Cat" Chant's sister is a powerful witch. Then there's a big mansion owned by a strong magician, a violin that got turned into a cat, lots of magic and parallel worlds, a garden you can't get into and nine mysterious matches.
And those dressing gowns.

General Notes, read again, recommend?: Having been read the book to (whoah?) at such a young age it was amazing to read it again now when I'm older. For example I noticed many things that probably have affected me at some un- or subconscious level, like how Michael Saunders had too small clothes (I myself can not bear to have my wrists and ankles seen). I also noe see where my particular belief in parallel worlds and the way they work might come from.
I will read the book again, as soon as I get the original english version from the library. I would also love to got the book as my own.
I also totally recommend this to anyone who likes fantasy. Though a bit short (I read it in a couple of hours) the book, in my opinion, is at least as good as the Wizard of Earthsea and the first Harry Potter.

Liked & Didn't like:
The book was , in a way, almost like a detective story. Just like in the best Christie books there were clues scattered throughout the book and then in the end they all came together and everything seemed so obvious.
Though clearly written from the POV of Cat, my perfectionist senses were a bit disturbed as sometimes the feelings of Gwendolen and other characters were there too, when Cat could never have known.

Favourite bits:
Well. I just loved both Saunders and Chrestomanci. I don't know why, but they both were that kind of strong, intelligent, a bit mysterious and scary male characters I've always loved. The big showdown in the garden was good too and the whole book was just a big nostalgiabomb for me.

All in all, a good read after all these years. Now just waitnig for the next part in the series to come to the library.

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No subject

2009-09-29T22:57:08Z

So I posted a short finnish-language rant on shittiness of life in here.
(And this: I bet you have never really given thought about the order of the adjectives in the English language? Because I have, and though they usually come out in the right order, but if you add something as an afterthought you have to think where you put it.)

And then to nice stuff.

I first saw the book in Suomalainen Kirjakauppa not long after it first was published. It was on a stand-sort of thing and it got my attention the moment I laid my eyes upon it. The red cover and the picture on it. I didn't buy it then though, the price of nearly twenty-five euros for something seemingly not that interesting was too much.

One day I was wandering around the net, doing those online tests made to determine my philosophical views. Surprisingly (or not) they all indicated that my way of thinking corresponds to that of existentialist writers, like Jean Paul Sartre.

Then yesterday I was in Suomalainen Kirjakauppa again, and it struck me. I wanted the book. That book which according to the back cover text drew from Tove Jansson's Moomin books and existentialist philosophers.
I bought the book. It's a 2009 release written by a Jukka Laajarinne, and I've gotten to around page 65. The things in it describe my thought processes and opinions on life and freedom very well. There even is a whole chapter for this feeling of distress and anxiety that is a big part of my personal life.

Makes one wonder, of course. Could it be that these assumed that if these kind of views were indeed delivered through the Moomin books, I might have absorbed them - at least partially - from them?

/awesome English, yes?

Make a blind man so confused

2009-09-26T07:38:51Z

I've been thinking. And yes, I know that too much thinking is bad for you, but still. I might need to write stuff in Finnish too so that I don't forget my dear own language. Mind you, our Finnish teacher thought we need to get reproducing so that we make many finnish-speaking children and this way preserve the finnish language.
And what's more, I could have two blogs, one in finnish (personal life etcetera) and one in english (this one, with stuff.)
I have my old blog open in the background and though really embarrassing, it doesn't seem half bad. It just seems that if I wrote in Finnish it'd be lass likely that I'd use proper language in stead of the spoken one.
HEY. Guess what I want? A playstation gaming platform! Yes! I thought about it one morning, lying in bed. Because I absolutely adore RPGs but the ones around the net are MMplayers, and I dislike interacting with real people (imaginary people are always okay, though). So yeah.
And I sorta just got inspired to make a new background. We'll see. // Done, before even posting this.

Kiirehdi, Nuuskamuikkunen!

2009-09-25T19:36:20Z

Okay, so I know I've said this of many songs (Regret, Mozart's 25th, Grieg's Morning Mood...) before, but I just might have found the most beautiful classical music composition ever.
Here be:

Not only is this like the most haunting and sad piece of music on it's own, the memories that I have of it are just terrible.
The scene in which the song is played is a nightmare sequence of Moomintroll's. He has a nightmare about Snufkin sailing on a little boat in the middle of a big, big, enormous sea. And then a monster comes up from the water and attacks Snufkin. And I can't even remember how it ends - Moomintroll probably just falls from the bed or something, but still. It's just terrible, and I was always really scared (there were only two things in the whole series worse than this: the Lady of the Cold and the Ghost Ship) when that scene was on when I was a kid, and one of the main reasons was probably the amazingly powerful music.
It was traumatizing (no giant turtles for me) and right now listening to it it just . . . worth a new tag, really.

Then the normal stuff:

Personal life:

School:
Four lessons of Art today - finished my 'Wheel of Time' (supposedly surrealistic) acrylic painting and decided that I'll remake Hugo Simberg's The Garden of Death - painting as a photograph. Now, all I need is a camera. . .
Then was the Maths test, which I think was quite easy, but I know I shouldn't say this 'cause if I do I'll get a 8 of it.

After school me and S. went to library - she had to borrow a book for her sister and I ended up walking out with the Beatles' Rubber Soul and Philip K. Dick's some book I can't recall the name. Then we went to the local Chinese and took some take waay, then I came home (she did so as well) and now I've been just sitting here and nothing.

Non-School:
*yawn*
I didn't have anything to say, until I yawned just there.
I've been waking up at amazing hours. I go to sleep between, um... six and twelve, and whenever it's closer to six I wake up before five o'clock. (And if I don't I still have an alarm waking me up between five-twenty and five-fifty. Need some time to wake up, you know.) Then I lie in bed for about two hours and then get up and go to school.
...
Mind you, I get reminded of how we talked ab - well, that is to say, they talked and I happened to be in the room - out the . . . eccentric ways of life of artists' today during our art lesson.

Non-personal:
Today is Bonzo's death day. For that, this:

We also have Page's beard.

What? This is totally not miryak's homepage

2009-09-24T12:41:04Z

Beneath cut some pictures.

We had to do thins thing for Swedish and while I don't have the time to reconstruct it here I think that the pictures and links included will give you a good idea of what it was like. The idea was to produce a homepage-sort of thing, similar to what we had in our textbooks. All that normal jazz: name, interests/hobbies, family, likes and dislikes.
I had the terrible urge to make something a bit more personal and so I did. The pictures found there are as follows:

only in the reversed order

the first thing on the page after a link to the Swedish wiktionary was a link to this. I had the inspiration for it because there was a drawing of a boy in our book that happened to remind me of that particular singer. And when I told that in the classroom our teacher told us that the singer had been a part of her youth. The in LOL'd.

Samanlaanen syrän on

2009-09-24T12:24:31Z

Personal life:
School:
Oh dear. I've been doing so much this week. First on Monday school was normal, except that as we got back our Finnish essays (9+) and tests (10-) our teacher was furious at us. She hid it quite well though, as I had no idea she'd been so angry before our English teacher told us about their discussion. I think she had a good reason to be displeased, however, as most of my classmates got a 7 of the test.
Then on Tuesday we had an English test. It was easy, I'm expecting to get a 10. We also had to write a short essay-type-sort of thing about being in a camp in Canada. We had had time to prepare for the essay the day before, but I completely went into a coma and couldn't do anything that time, so I had to come up with everything on the spot. I hadn't had time to do it at home either, because I had to write the article for Finnish ( I confess. I actually kinda started writing it on Tuesday.)
Wednesday was okay, we had a double lesson of PE, one of Maths and two of Finnish. I don't even remember what we talked about. All I know of Wednesday is that I finished my article, and it was amazing!
Then today in the morning two lessons of French, one of English, two of Finnish and two of Geography, during which we had a test I hadn't read for. But I won't mind, because my Finnish article is so good!

miryak @ 2009-09-22T07:19:00

2009-09-22T04:19:31Z

I found the Moomin musics. Fiburaz.blogspot, bless that guy. I'm seriously fighting tears here, people.

i'm a happy man, don't it look that way?

2009-09-20T18:31:24Z

Ironic!Subject is highly ironic.

begin the angst:

I'm still kinda depressed. Depressed, tired, bored, uninspired, filthy, overworked for someone as lazy as me and completely uninterested in anything.

Well, the lattermost part wasn't true. Still, in this state of ... what should this be called? uninspiration? I continue to be interested in some stuff. Only, the kinds of things I should not have time for amidst all the work.

There are two things that I'm actually - no wait, make that three things I'm most concerned of. The first one is the Article for Finnish. It has to be returned on Thursday, meaning I have to have it ready by Wednesday so mum can print it at work (DAMNIT I NEED A PRINTER, PEOPLE! YOU HEAR ME?). The second is out geography test. I know I'm not going to do very well. I haven't really been paying attention, and the things we're supposed to study are so goddamn boring you can't imagine it.

I must add to the list up there that I feel very unaccomplished. Not that I am, of course, but I feel like it. There's so much to be and to do (like, really do, in the future when one is 'grown up'). There's so much I want to be, and that just makes it all worse for me right now, when I should be doing stuff to make my dreams - not necessarily come true, but become possible to reach - by, for example, doing great in school.

The third thing actually is something I never really cease to be concerned of. That's got to do with people, being with them and being what they expect me to be
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which, I must say, is god-fucking tiring and it makes me boil and go-rage every now and then.

I have very little (read: none) interest in people unless there's something to be gained from the relationship aside from the obvious glass-is-always-half-full people's 'happiness from having friends' - which is nothing more than a pile of dare I say what.
I'm not good with people, and I really don't care if I'm not, but it's not nice when people don't like you. Especially people that, to some degree at least, should like you. Or people you (or me, heh heh) would like to like you.
There's not so many of those, cause if someone finds me . . . not nice, I usually won't bother with them. When we get deeper into this stuff you'll see that not everything is quite as simple as that.
I just wish that I could treat people like shit, but it's a two-way (or twenty-way, really) thing. *insert bowie voice* It ain't easy. *and out again*

Furthermore, being a teenager is kinda hard. Nothing makes any sense (AND SENSE IS WHAT EVERYTHING SHOULD MAKE) and it's all just casually stupid.

It's all so easy to say this all here, like this. It's be a thousand times harder to say it to someone's face. Also, I'm a terrible crybaby (never would've guessed that, eh? it's the moon in pisces that does it to me.) and it's all just gone to wailing.

But yeah. Need to head to bed.